First I would like to tell you something very important. This website and everything I write here is true, it is a mirror of my life. And my goal is to be completely honest! I will write about all the things that are happening the bad and the good. I decided I will be completely honest, because from my experience I found out that too little people are honest to others and I mean this for every day life and SPECIALLY for the internet. Even the photos in my make-up gallery are not edited with “photoshop”, and for the ones that will be edited I will write a note so that you will know what was changed... let me begin...

This is me. My name is Zoran Gajic and I was born in Kranj – Slovenia, in 1983. This is funny I really don't know what to write about myself. So I will just write about few things that come first on my mind, about my childhood, my personality the good and mostly the bad things that happened and how my life has lead me to become a make-up artist.

First of all, I had very interesting childhood. Now as I look back I can see that even when I was very young I was very different, compared to other kids. Very different in a way that different things interested me. While other kids were all playing around and cause nervous breakdowns to their parents, I was always rather alone and »invent« little things. Let me explain. I remember when I was 6 years old and I still didn't read, I was amazed over books of Nikola Tesla. He was great inventor and I just couldn't stop watching pictures of all the machines he built. I noticed other kids weren't interested in things I liked. So being different became my habit. In primary school I was really good at chemistry and biology. Teachers had to send me out of the class to make me shut up because I told everything teacher wanted to say, I already knew everything (because I was reading all the books about chemistry and biology). I was also very good at music and drawing. Actually my hobby then was to make electronic techno / trance music on my computer. But I always hid everything and never showed it to other people. I always had this feeling that nobody would like what I composed. I still have all the music stored on my computer maybe I will make mp3's and show it on this website, I don't know, I'm still thinking about this...

When the time came to go to the high school I made one of the biggest mistakes in my life, or maybe not (why not, I will explain later). Everybody told me that computers are the future and I should go that way. While as a child I always wanted to be a doctor or do massages I still made this choice and went to study computers. I just couldn't think with my head and I listened to others. Some teachers from primary school couldn't believe that I didn't go study medicine, chemistry or biology.

My life in high school was very sad. I already suffered from deep depression, which was there for several years. This story is very long but I will just say shortly that I lost someone I loved so much and also the fact that always being different is hard, caused me so much pain. I lost myself and I couldn't think, I couldn't see myself in the future doing anything. Years were running by so fast and I simply didn't do anything. I failed out of high school... I lost the will to finish the school because I saw that being a computer technician is just not the thing for me. Nevertheless I know almost everything about computers, I worked in several computer companies I even worked in gaming industry but I just couldn't do that kind of a job.

The thing was. Computers caused me too much stress. Sitting in front of a computer doing things that made others rich, made me sick and depressed and also stressed. No matter what I was doing I just started and then quit before I was even in the middle. I had so many different jobs and I quit everything. I couldn't find myself there and I already knew that I had to find a different way of »survival« in this world.

But all this time something was bothering me. In high school I met an awesome girl, I fell in love with her the first time I saw her in the biology class. This person meant everything to me. I loved her with the deepest possible love my heart is capable of. However we are not together anymore. I must say that the time I was with her I experienced some of the most beautiful moments in my life. But I really don't want to write about this, since it still causes me great pain just to think about her, but there is one thing I must say. This thing is very important because it changed my life completely. Before I had this girlfriend (she was my first by the way, and the last...) I thought that every girl knows how to do make-up. Once she was at my place and wanted to go out I told her to do some make-up so that she will look even more gorgeous than she already is. But she told me that she doesn't do make-up very well. I was like: »WHAT?« I told her: »You are a girl, you should know how to do make-up.« She was embarrassed and then I insisted that I do the make-up for her. I think this was the first time I even had a piece of make-up stuff (that's how I called it back then) in my hand. When she closed her eyes I just pictured in my mind how I want her to look, what will make her look even more gorgeous. And then I just »painted« her face (I only did the eyes). I noticed it's just like painting a picture where you already have everything drawn in black and white frames and you just have to add the color. Her eyes were already there, her cheeks, lips, everything was already there, it just needed a little color. Well I only did her eyes because then I didn't know ANYTHING about make-up. She was amazed how well I did it, she even told me that I should do this stuff more... She was really gorgeous that day. Just the little make-up made such a big change. Even though I think I wasn't that good she was totally right, I should do that more.

That was the moment in my life that changed everything. Since then I always wanted to visit a make-up class, but it was almost impossible to find one in Slovenia. I was also totally broke so I couldn't even afford one.

My life was moving on. Later our relationship failed mostly because of me, at least I think. I had no regular job, I had almost no income. My father owned a company, I did almost all the paperwork for him, but he never appreciated much what I did for him. I had a place to live and food but that was enough. He rarely gave me any money for all the stuff I did for his company, but I never thought that was wrong.

The thing that broke me the most was that EVERYBODY were telling me that I will never succeed in anything in my life, that I'm the biggest loser and such. Some people that meant much to me even laughed at me in front of others, explaining how stupid I am and how I failed out of high school. Even my girlfriends parents said many times that I will never finish the school, that I will never succeed in anything, that I will NEVER have a good life and such... Sadly, when our relationship was drawing to an end even she told me the same things... All this left huge scars on my heart. All these people never let me show them what a great person I am and that we don't need a school to be wonderful inside. No education on this world teaches you how to respect people, care for them, love them and be a wonderful and loyal friend, I thought people would see who I really am, but everyone around me were judging me only through the things I have, things I accomplished, through job, money, what car I drive and such... I feel sorry for everyone in my life that thought so about me...

The thing is. I was never stupid or incapable of achieving something in my life. I just didn't want to do the things normal people do. Go to work, listen to nervous boss, trade your time for little money was something that always made me want to puke. If I wanted to have a job I would already have one. And then there was other thing too. I never completed my high school. After I failed, I found myself a job, started working and wanted to pay for the school. It was expansive but in one moment I just decided I will NEVER finish the »regular« school. And began making bigger plans for my life.

I hope this is not boring. I just want to explain a little how I think, because I was always different and nobody liked I am and how I think. Sadly I will always stay that way. I simply love it !!!

I still didn't get over the girl that totally broke my heart when she left. It's now 4 years since we both went their way, she is now married to my ex-good friend. Even though she totally broke me I don't regret a single moment I spent with her. I'm not angry at her, because I know it was also my fault that she left. Actually she helped me in a way she probably doesn't even know, unless she someday reads this stuff.

I became much stronger person. Stronger than anyone could ever think!

Some time after I failed out of school I joined a MLM (multi level marketing) company that sells Aloe Vera products, nutrition, and also cosmetics. I liked this company because I have some relatives that are very successful in this kind of business. At this moment I don't want to name the company, I will explain why later. I slowly began to sell their products. I never earned much with this kind of a job but I liked it so much. Because you get payed for what you do. And you can be your own boss. This was a kind of business I liked and I could do. I just regret I didn't work more.

I was selling nutrition and skin care products to my family, my friends and also people I met. The thing that amazed me the most is the quality of the products and also I learned what is important when taking care of our health. My uncle who is a doctor, thought me so much. I must admit I never had any failure. All the advices I gave people about their skin care and health were successful. This is how I slowly gained some self confidence and faith that I am capable of doing wonderful things. I always did massages to family. My father was a hard worker and he always needed a massage. I liked doing this as a child but now it has all different meaning. Now when I combine good natural products with massage, I get awesome results. I help people with their skin problems, with good products and massage. They enjoy it as much as I do and when I see good results I am very happy. So this is how my life began changing. A few years I did this only to friends and family members. I never charged much for my services, when I saw that people are happy I was happy too, I didn't need any money. But you will see how things changed and why now I am changing my life and how I plan a real business out of all these good experiences I have.

The greatest thing this MLM company did for me was that they organized a make-up class. This wasn't even happening in Slovenia but in Croatia, and I spent all my savings to be there. I was the only one from Slovenia on that class and I also was the only guy. There were all girls there, some very known cosmetic experts and everyone had so much knowledge about make-ups and cosmetics. I had no idea actually about just anything...

But the most exciting thing that happened to me there was that I met wonderful teacher, Nicolas. He is a known make-up artist, his wonderful way of teaching and his ambition motivated me so much that I made a decision that I want to become a make-up artist too.

I finally found the thing I want to do and I enjoy doing. I learned so much from Nicolas, he totally changed my life and the way I was thinking. Now after this class, the skin care and nutrition help and advices I was already giving to people got all new meaning. I realized how everything is connected. Yes make-up does make girls very gorgeous but if their body and skin is not healthy from the inside, it doesn't mean much. So now I combine being a make-up artist and also teach people how they can improve their health so that their skin always looks beautiful.

Something that I was already doing, got all new meaning. Before I took this class I did all those things but still I was uncertain if that's what I want to do. But after the make-up class, after I realized how damn good I am at this, after Nicolas showed me my true potential I became even stronger than I was before.

I finished the class successfully and I got my diploma of which I am very proud. After the class I start saving up money to buy good make-up and all the necessary cosmetics to start working as a make-up artist. I finished the class in September 2005.

It took me 6 months to gather up enough money and courage to buy all the cosmetics and start working as a »freelance« make-up artist. On February 2005 I started doing make-ups for many different nice girls. They appreciated the work done and liked it a lot. And they got a good reason, because my work was astonishing. I was surprised how good I am at this. Every make-up I did gave me more courage and more self confidence that I really made the right decision. I also began to expand my MLM network, to sell the products to my friends and even people I don't know. Finally my life started to move on and was becoming very interesting. Also slowly I began to earn more and more money, still not enough to pay the bills and such but it was amazing to live a life a different way, my way.

But then something very sad happened in April 2006 just as my life began to be better. It felt almost like it's meant for me to have a sad life... My father had a terrible car accident. He had 1% chance to survive and he did survive. But with big injuries. This was the most stressful and sad part of my life. He got a hard hit into his head and also brain injury. First 2 weeks we didn't know if he will survive. Every day spending several hours at hospital was a real hell for me and my family. Everything went down. My fathers company stopped bringing income to us. We had no more income since my mum is unemployed and after the accident she uses all her energy to help my father, I deeply appreciate everything she has done so far and continues doing. I didn't have the experience to run his company, so I just tried to soften some already huge problems.

My fathers condition didn't change much and the months were passing. He suffered from brain damage and I really can't explain how stressful this was. He couldn't recognize me for 8 months. The recovery from brain damage is one of hardest and most life draining things that can happen to anyone, believe me! He couldn't stay at hospital anymore at some point because he caused too much problems there, like, he was screaming at night, having delusions, he couldn't recognize family members, he got panic attacks, paranoia attacks, attacked hospital personal and so on... They sent him home, and we got him at home in this bad condition. We had to take care about all the basic things. He couldn't go to bathroom, he couldn't sleep at night, sometimes he refused food, not to talk about the medicines... Me and my mum had to be with him every night. So one night I couldn't sleep one night she couldn't because one had to be with him. This totally destroyed me and my family. My other 2 brothers with their wives also helped us so much. This is hard to explain and one can hardly understand unless you experienced similar tragedy.

Now after long months of fight and struggle my fathers condition is much better, his memory is returning and everything is settling down slowly. I am very happy for him that his condition is better now. But this though experience destroyed a part of me. It's hard to see a person that was once so strong now being someone else. My father as he was, will never return, his life is changed forever. His condition is getting much better but he just isn't the same person anymore.

The thing is... My life isn't wonderful right now. Yes I am a make-up artist, I enjoy doing this, I do earn something, but not enough. Our family is on an edge of financial breakdown, and there is a possibility that can lose everything we have, our house, everything. Because we still have these big loans my father had before the accident and when the company stopped bringing income to our family, loans are still there. Banks don't care how you live or what happened they just want their money back, that's the sad truth of our modern world. Just to make some things clear. My fathers company was a small company, at the end he was the only one working and I was helping him. We had a plan to work for 2 years maybe tops 3 years so we pay back all the loans and stuff and then he could retire. That was his plan. He had enough of everything already, he always had so much trouble with workers and the good thing was that he had no workers at the time when he had the accident. Because there would be just more problems.

My father didn't had the insurances. He did have the necessary medical insurance, thank God he had that. The only insurance we are hoping to get is the car insurance from which he has the right to get some money. But these things take so much time before you get any money.

So now... Let me explain something. I didn't make this website to beg people for money. I made it in hope that I will be able to earn little extra income, at least to pay the most necessary bills.

And there is one more thing. Even if this website doesn't earn me a single penny. It will help me in some very unique way. I tried explaining to some people how hard it was for my family and myself to bear this burden of the tragedy we went through, but people just couldn't understand. So, if someone out there can understand this, thank you... then I accomplished what I hoped for.

It's time for me to change my life and try and save my family from a disaster. I plan to do this in 3 ways. So the goal is to earn enough money to pay off the necessary bills and the big bank loans at least for so long until my father gets money from the insurance, which is our only hope that we will get enough money to pay off all the debts so we can live on normally.

I plan 3 things as I already said.

The first is to earn money as a make-up artist. Here in Slovenia it's too hard to earn money as a make-up artist. So I plan and HOPE that I could get a job in UK. UK is kind off close, and not too expansive for me to travel to. And since my english is very good I have good chances of success there.

The second plan is to expand the selling network of products and cosmetics in my MLM company. I plan to expand the network also to US, Canada and UK. So if you are from those countries and are interested in more info please mail me and I will explain you more.

The third plan is this website. I made all the designs myself. Even though I am not sure if this website can earn me money, at least it does let the world know I exist. Someone I never met in my life can read about my life and see my work, and that's exactly what my plan is. I'm sure someone out there will appreciate my work. And if I can help anyone in anything with my work than my plan is fulfilled.

So now that you know that my life is a mess, you may understand how much it means for me to succeed and save my life, my family and people I care about from a disaster. Also I'm very decided to succeed, and you will be able to watch the progress I make in my life, of course if you want to...